cant stop...

munching on polvorones and sees chocolates....good thing it's not new years yet...

2011 resolutions ( not that anyone cares )

1) lose 10 lbs

2) tone up/ get in shape

3) do well in school

4) smile more !

5) work on my lack of patience with particular people

6) GET A JOB .

7) save money

Feliz Navidad !

my absolute favorite holiday <3

smile for me

<3
true beauty   (click me !)

un beso lo cura todo

newest addition

an newest addiction

can't start a fire without a spark

life's a lie . (did i not end up posting this one?)

toxic fingertips an writing splurges, welcome to my overpacked mind

dear diary,

i am really

surprised with myself...

the day i've been waiting for all semester

is coming up fast and i'm actually freaking out.

i started wanting to go home a few weeks into school

and now that it's finally here i'm starting to get sad,

i know

i'm planning on coming back next semester, which is essentially next month,

but a month is a long ways away to be so far away from certain friends, its a long time

to not be residing in my hall where i'm friends with many of my "neighbors",

it's a long time

to not be able to walk out of my room whenever i feel like it and talk to someone, laugh or go out to smoke. i'm thrilled to see my friends again, i can't wait to sleep in my own bed, in my own home and see

my parents, to get home cooked dinners and have nice laid back nights in my backyard, i can't wait to smell the ocean air and to eat ininout and tacos... i can't wait for christmas, to see my family and for the smell of pine trees an the excitement of christmas morning and giving presents, i prefer my home to school any day... it's a given... this is where things get tricky, i've never been interested in someone so much that i want to spend every minute of my day with them, no matter what's going on, whether he's playing video games or playing music, or with his friends, i don't care, i just feel this need to be next to him and i've gotten used to falling asleep with my head on his shoulder and i've gotten used to him being there for me during my random, crazy panic attacks and recently i got used to waking up to him coming into my room and i find myself starting to actually look forward to early mornings, which i used to dread. as sappy and corny as this is, as intense as this all is, this relationship and these emotions are fairly new and i find myself overwhelmed by it all. i try to stop overanalyzing everything and distract myself with other things but i also try to maintain a hold on myself and keep myself safe from getting hurt, i try to build up a small wall so when things fall apart--they usually do--my world won't fall apart with them. this break is long, i will have fun and be happy to be home but i know that the whole time i'll be thinking of him, worrying that things will not be the same when school starts again...

wicked wednesdays...

of course, instead of studying which i'm currently in the library to do, i'm blogging an fb creeping ...
i can't help it, i'm just not school smart - sorry mom an dad.

i think i'm a little too much like charlie brown ...

one week from today - i can't wait !

home  (hm)

n.

1. A place where one lives; a residence.

2. The physical structure within which one lives, such as a house or apartment.

3. A dwelling place together with the family or social unit that occupies it; a household.

4.a. An environment offering security and happiness.

   b. A valued place regarded as a refuge or place of origin.

i'm not unfaithful but i'll stray when i get a little scared, when i get a little scared

i don't know why things always turn out like this .
why i always end up wanting to run away.
it doesn't make any sense, but i guess i don't quite make sense either.

tantric tuesdays

and the countdown begins...

this week is so stressful, its actually been an incredibly stressful month, but all i have to do is remind myself to breath and that before i know it i will be done and on my way back the west coast... which would be entirely comforting if it weren't for the fact that it means i'd be on the opposite coast for an entire month from the person i'm currently digging...

freaky friday

false heroes

true heroes

wino wednesdays and thrifty thursdays

 

and yesterday I saw you kissing tiny flowers, but all that lives is born to die